Published On: 11-16-2006 03:55 AM
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Something is dying inside me tonight.
Something that I've been holding too tightly to all along.
I can't breath anymore.
It's welling up
And the fight just isn't there.

There's not much left for me to do
But sit inside this hole and live the rest of my days.
It used to be the same
And still
I found joy in the simple things

Now it's all struggle, fight, restlessness
Thinking that there is more to it
Some thing I'm missing something fundamental
Every time I reach
It just turns to ashes
The same old shit that I couldn't stand in the first place

I'm trying hard to understand
This thing that is inflicted
A supposed gift.
Good intentions raise hell
Insisting upon inflicting on the uninterested.

Published On: 10-07-2006 03:46 AM
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I sit upon the
precipice
of my spirituality
dancing naked on the edge
of the throne
of my lost life
love
reality

coming to grips
with my insanity
my addictions

never surrendering upon
what they want from me
the greedy bastards
just lingering
for a while
upon

the precipice
before I fall into old habits
new found friends
claw at your back
beg for more
"Please"
they scream
for next to nothingness
as I ask for more
than they will ever have
to offer

Was I wrong
to ask for more?
Am I to blame?
To ask
that if
you
are going to
suck my soul
dry
the least you could do
is swallow?

Published On: 10-07-2006 12:55 AM
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